can u handle the taste of the "forbidden fruit"?

i know this is a biblical phrase "forbidden fruit" but i like to use it to describe the untouchables....things that are within our grasp but at the same time u arent suppose to touch.....its like u runnin windsprint in 100 degree whether and this havin a glass of ice cold water in front of that u cant drink.....i know its a stretch but u get my point...its like u want it so much but u cant have it.....i think the mere fact that its a bad thing to do that in part makes u want it even more.....i am weak...im only human....so how am i suppose to resist....i feel like my sweet tooth is callin i cant have no form of ice cream at all....LOL....its forbidden for wat reason???? i mean who says u cant have it???? society??? friends??? parents??? just cause someone thinks its wrong or u shouldnt does that mean u have to conform to it.....when i think of it i think of how blacks and whites arent suppose to b together....i mean if two peeps fall in love.....y not.....wats the harm...u know...i sometimes think if i were to taste the fruit...i would prolly want it more and more and more....like a crackhead needs his pipe...lol....that bad....the thing is the glass could look good, seem worth it but does it taste good after u have it.....would u now want the taste all the time....im still tryin to figure that one out now.....

its been a long time....

ok...so it has been a while....a lot to catch u up on.....y do people do wat they do???? i cant always make sense to the reason y i do wat i do but the fact that i do wat i wanna do....people make time for stuff they wanna do....i call peeps i wanna call...talk to who i wanna talk to....and vice versa....i neva understand y peeps just dont do as they feel more often....y does the "forbidden fruit" taste so good? y do i keep goin down the same path knowin wat the results would b? i cant answer none of those questions...i think im goin to just try something new now...i wonder if i were to b quiet how would i b perceived....im goin to try my best now to change peeps opinions by changin my opinion....i try to let me get ot know me to find out that before i open my mouth they already got their mind made up....then u got peeps that r out for self....long story short i hate them...and go f#ck urself.....pardon me french...movin on.....y do black females hate when black males r wit white females??? i always say that to make them mad...but really wats wrong wit two peeps fallin in love and wantin to get married...and it just so happens that one is white and one is black....would it change anything if they were black and mexican....or black and asian....which i do think is a very nice mix.....this is a random blog today....but i just wonder sometimes bout alot of things....i wanna win the powerball....i wanna win the powerball.....if i were to win i would def reconsider some things in my life....i would still b the same but just b a whole lot richer.....and be able to make a few more investments....i aint goin to front....i would open a strip club....and a night club.....those would two of my first investments.....the night club would b a lounge slash night club.....upscale and classy but can get trashy if the crowd wants it.....small cover...cheap booze....equal LOTS of money in my pocket....lol....

have u ever....

have u ever wanted to talk to a person and not know wat to say?
have u ever wanted a time machine?
have u ever tried something new?
have u ever been completely honest?

can someone be completely honest? like is that even possible...i feel like sometimes people arent completely honest with themselves....like ur homeboy aint tell u ur breathe was hot or how ur girl not tell u that not peach fuzz thats a d@mn mustache and that shyt aint cool....i think people use "completely honest" when they tellin bout at least 75% of the truth....sometimes u cant be honest bout everything cause u tryin to spare someone feelings....true story....ALOT of people ask questions that they dont REALLY wanna know the answer to....for instance, how many people u been with.....how much do u think i weigh......do u like me.....r u really a hoe.....r u really a dirtbag....i mean the list goes on and on and on....but u get the point...honesty is used often but not often enough...dont u think the world would b a whole lot simple if peeps were more honest...i try to b honest...ive been told im honest to a fault....people think other people cant handle the truth....but the funny thing bout it is...u will neva know unless you try....SSSSOOOOOOO.....just try to b completely honest for one day and see how things go.....leave some feedback and let me know wat happened and wat r ur thoughts on complete honesty.....

"Black in America"

so today i was mindin my own business drivin in the hood....i came to a stop sign where i say a cop car parked in the alley....so i made a left turn and low and behold that same cop car was behind me....so next thing i know i saw flashin lights....and 3 cops hop out...2 white and 1 black....they knock on my back windows while my front two were down.....had me turn my car off and place the keys on the top of my car....im thinkin no problem officer....and he goes..."im not goin to lie to u...we got betta things to do" so im thinkin im bout to b on my way....he tells me that i failed to signal at the stop sign...im like ok...he said get out of the car...and then i was handcuffed but not arrested claimin it was for their safety....and then my car and myself were illegally searched....so everybody ask me did i get badge numbers....im like that the last thing im thinkin about as im gettin handcuffed for failin to signal at a stop sign....the only thing i was guilty of was bein "Black in America"....that was the first time i was ever handcuffed...outside of my bedroom and a vigorous game of "bad cop and the hitchhiker" dont even ask...lol....crazy huh????? well thats my life my life my life.....

pursuit of happiness....

well i was chillin wit some cognac and get cha mind right and i was wonderin wat makes me happy....and how does one pursue happiness....do u lower ur standards? try to betta urself first? like wat is the answer to this madness....ive been in the pursuit of happiness for at least 10 years....i mean really who hasnt...most girls i deal wit are cool peeps....some i care more for than others....some i attempt to see wats good and they cant/dont know how to just say how they feel....i take u back to this one time....both parties single....tried to holla and was like um...im not lookin for anything serious..(translation - i dont think u cool enough to b on my arm..lol...)cool i step off...and then cause i aint n her face no more im a dirtbag...give me a break....so my question is how does one not b frowned upon for tryin to pursue his own happiness post rejection....does that make sense? i hope it does cause i totally understand wat im sayin....ive been victim to big titties, fat booty's, pretty smiles, long hair dont care (lol), and the list goes on....i thought all of those material things would make me happy in the long run but came to the realization that just cause the exterior is beautiful doesnt mean the inside is even 1/5 of that beauty....ive met some ugly personality dimes and some lesser attractive (to me) females wit beautiful personalities....i mean the eye of the beholder forms its own beauty....well til next time....ponder on this....

gin and ciphers....

well i learned a very valuable lesson.....i tried to drown my sorrows wit a few like 7-8 shots of jose and step to the club....i took a sick "L".....by the time i got there had a few more drinks i took one trip round the dancefloor and then i passed out at the bar wit sunglasses on....the sad thing bout it was i got drunk and passed out prior to 10pm and didnt make it upstairs to the dancefloor til 1am....tryin to get all my partyin in....i would wake up and a different person was beside me makin sure i was ok...LOL....but i have seen a few pics of that night but i hope the rest dont resurface....i learned i could neva be an alcoholic cause i dont know how to stop once i passed my limit....o wait i guess thats wat makes an alcoholic an alcoholic....lol.....im an alcoholic and i need help....lol....ps im also a sex-o-holic too....any one else have this problem????

girls, girls, girls i do adore....

one sec while i have some of my cognac....ok now lets get down to the topic of the night.....girls aka females aka chicks....so i can talk bout the ones that r shady, shady towards me, or plain funny stories that have happened to me....we all know i got stories for days....so take a min and think which one u wanna hear and let me know....................u done..............come on now just pick one.....great glad u picked funny stories....

so let me tell u wat happened...im not goin to sit here and say dudes are not some of the shadiest peeps on this planet but and i said BUT females are by far the worst....a woman will cheat on a man and then keep it movin cause she "dont count that"..........so imma set this story up for u......im in love saw this girl walkin cross campus one day....this was my long hair light skin moment...i mean i saw heaven when i met her....lol....no bull...she was kinda a big deal.....so i finally get to where i can talk to her on the phone...cant exactly remember how i got her number....but i did and i manned up to call her...so i pick the phone up and dial...on some im bout to book this joint and make it happen for ur boi....man let me tell u...it aint go nothing like that....lol.....so i call and she pick up....now this was when phone technology wasnt up to par....so i could tell she sounded distant but i couldnt tell at first that she had me on speakerphone....til i heard some snickerin in the background....i mean i got played something vicious on speakerphone by this girl GOD knows who could have been in the room listening....im just glad it didnt make it out in campus media....lol....im all pourin my heart out to her and she just playin alone on some give me more tell me more....and im just goosy like u r pretty wats up....she was just like im cool....and then i heard like 3 of her girls bust out laughin so i was just on some uhhh...ill let u go....talk to you lata.....and was like dang, i cant believe i got played like that...and on speakerphone on top of that....i think it was totally unnecessary but i cant front lookin back on it, it is kinda funny...i give it a 7 out of 10 on the funny scale...i feel as tho she couldda been more creative....lol....

my life could b a movie....

ok so today while i was out....a girl told me, mind u she barely knows me....says "u dont look like husband material"....now u know i almost said "BYTCH!!!!WHO DA F#CK R U" but i caught myself and had to ask how u figure....and she proceeded to explain complete nonsense...mostly cause she dont know me...and then turned to the biggest dirtbag that i know and said..."he seems like perfect husband material"....just thought i should share....now dont tell anybody i told u bout this....lol....

how many have this problem????

so here is the story....i went to this bar late one night im talkin bout 2am....im chillin wit this girl just makin convo tryin to see wats goin on n her head....so i pose the question....how do i go from chillin tryin to get to know u betta to i think im in love....i like d@mn baby relax on the assumptions....just cause a brotha ask bout u and ur life doesnt mean that he tryin to take u home to meet moms....i had to take a moment and gather myself cause the look of "blown" was def on my face....
i got stories for days on this subject but imma just jump around and be random...i mean this is a blog u know....i actually got this idea from a friend....and we all know when someone refers to a"friend" 9 out of 10 times its the opposite sex....well ladies and gentleman...this is NOT one of those exceptions...lol....but i think its a good idea...im not sure if this is suppose to b anonymous or not...i dont care either way tho...

wat it do....

well today this week and this whole dayum year has sucked for ur boi....suffered some setbacks and came to realization bout other things....so some people who think they know me...have this view of me that is harsh...boo hoo....like i give two shyts....lol....but they should take the time to find out bout me rather than just talk shyt bout me behind my back....i could get use to this bloggin shyt real soon....so in search for wifey but not really looking right now...does that make sense?